December 7th was Miles's 1st birthday... And although every part of us wishes we had our son here with us, we tried to push through the pain and heartache and find ways to honor him and his sister in Heaven... In honor of Miles's and Brooklyn's birthdays, we decided to make baskets to take to... Continue Reading →
Leading to Transfer.
It has been awhile since I have blogged and a lot has happened during that time. The past month has been filled with hope, excitement, anxiety, and the daily struggle of grief. We have learned to balance work, our home life, and the doctor's appointments. Days that included legal, medications, lab draws, ultrasounds, and waiting... Continue Reading →
The Roller Coaster of NICU.
December 8, 2017. 6:06 pm. This was the first time that I got to leave the ICU and visit Miles. I had spent the past day and a half only being able to see him through pictures, videos and FaceTime. I was incredibly thankful for a strong and loving husband who balanced taking care of... Continue Reading →
Miles’ Birth Story Part 2
Everything happened so quickly the morning that Miles was born. It is difficult and emotional to try and process everything that happened that day... From the terror of the unknown to the love, positivity and strength of my husband to the compassion shown to us by the hospital staff... As difficult as it is, I... Continue Reading →
Miles’ Birth Story Part 1
I have started, stopped, and restarted this post several times. I have not been able to get far enough into it without having a complete and absolute meltdown. This is the point in Miles' story that I have struggled journaling and writing about... The day leading to being readmitted into the hospital and the week... Continue Reading →
Making it to 24.
October 4, 2017. After the cerclage placement was successful, I was discharged from the hospital to remain at home on bedrest until the cerclage was scheduled to be removed at 36-37 weeks. It was going to be quite the adjustment for me. I was used to working five days a week, cooking, cleaning, running errands, going... Continue Reading →
The road to bedrest.
Well, there we were. Pregnant with our rainbow. And the plan that we had set in place with our doctor was about to begin. We told our family and friends to have as much support as possible and there were so many hugs and happy tears from everyone. This time was going to be different, everyone felt... Continue Reading →
Starting the road to our rainbow.
This is a post that I have been dreading. Going back, reflecting and writing about what we have been through over the past year... The start of our journey to our rainbow baby and how we got to where we are today. Writing is therapeutic, it helps me process my grief, but it also can take... Continue Reading →
Fast forward to today…
My past blogs have gone back in time and have told the story of our daughter, Brooklyn. I had planned to eventually catch up to my present day life and had hoped that time would be around March of this year when we were bringing our son home... Surprise... I was pregnant... Only our closest... Continue Reading →
Leaving the hospital without her…
Everything happened so fast the night Brooklyn was born... I had to be taken to the OR after delivering her because my placenta would not come out. My parents were still in the Philippines and my mom was not scheduled to arrive back until the next evening. Luckily, my mother in law came to the... Continue Reading →
Love, The Johnsons 