What is your promise?

Hey you… Yeah, you.

In the waiting…. I see you...

You’re getting weary. You’re getting anxious. You’ve been waiting, in the in between for what feels like so long. Not quite at the beginning of the painful circumstance that felt so raw and had you in so much anguish, but in the midst of day to day life where you grapple with the remains of the storm.

Some days it feels like it will never end. Some days you wonder if you’ll ever be able to peak your head out of that fog for a breath of fresh air.

Other days there’s hope. Other days that promise feels so close you could almost taste it. Reach out and grab it. And you dream of the peace and joy you’ll have when that day finally comes. You can feel it in your bones, in your spirit and it keeps you going.

It feels so close… Yet so far.

What is it? Your promise?….. The thing you’ve been waiting for. Praying about. The thing you are absolutely believing God for.

Is it a job? A spouse? A child?

Freedom from anxiety? Depression? Addiction?

I’m here to tell you, I see you. Not from someone who’s on the other side of the trenches telling you how good it is, how everything is going to be okay. But from someone in the thick of it, with you.

Your plans? They’ve gone down the drain…
This path? Looks nothing like you thought it would…

But let me tell you, God has so much more for you.

More than the disappointment. More than the heartache. More than you could ever imagine.

But I know what you’re thinking… How? How could any good come from such bad, terrible circumstances? It feels impossible.

But it’s not. And it’s solely because of the grace of God. God does the impossible…

For me… And for you…

There is nothing too big, too much or too far for God.

So here I am… Writing four years after my desire to have a child first entered my heart… Writing after losing my daughter… My son… Two miscarriages and a failed transfer later… I’ve felt it and lost it all in the same breath. But I’m still believing God for it. Believing we’ll hold that baby, walk out of that hospital as a family, standing firm on that promise… Remembering these days and continuing to glorify God through our story.

I know it’s hard. But you’re not in the trenches alone. The nearness you feel? It’s God’s presence. He is there. He is working, even in the waiting. Even in the stillness.

And that freedom? It’s Jesus... And that peace and joy you seek… It can be found in Jesus.

Don’t wait for a thing to bring you happiness.

Money? Cars? Clothes? They’re fleeting and temporary. A person? They won’t be perfect and yes sometimes they’ll disappoint. You’re desires for a child? Don’t place them above God.

Seek Him. Surrender whatever it is that is keeping you from fully experiencing His glory and His goodness. Trust Him. Because that is where true happiness and peace lie…

I’m believing you, believing God for you. Believing for your peace, your promise, your healing… Don’t give up. Don’t lose heart. Keep fighting.

I know I am…